It’s the second morning after the 2008 Hawaii Ironman World Championships. I’m sitting in our condo north of Kona about 25 miles (or about 8 hours walking time based on my marathon pace). I’m tired, stiff, sore and incredibly happy and greatfull to everyone and anyone who has helped me fullfill my ‘adjusted’ season goal. The fact that I completed the Hawaii Ironman 10 weeks after getting rid of crutches is sinking in more now than at the finish line. I guess you need glycogen to process things!
The preceeding days to the race were the typical busy filled ones. Get up, have a light breakfast, go swim at the pier, get some ART work done on my bad parts, have lunch, go for a spin, get my gear ready, etc. Then suddenly it’s race day and the typical mystery of the day sinks into the gut.
Race morning I got out of bed at 4a.m and was out the door by 4:20. We already knew where to park (thanks to Dave Mercer) and got there without issue. I had 2 hours to get ready but with the lines for the crapper it was certainly needed time. The Hawaii Ironman is the most amazing race when it comes to the amount of volunteers. They have more volunteers than racers at the start line so everything moves super fast with body marking, check-in, etc. It’s amazing how fast 2 hours goes by and before I knew it I had kissed my family ‘good-bye’ and headed for the ocean.
The swim went really well. I was super patient and lined up just behind the ‘twitchy’ folk who were pressing at the front. I didn’t get too hung up in traffic but did have to swim slow the first quarter. I only had one altercation where some 45 year old was doing the ankle/hip/shoulder sling on me. He didn’t get my shoulder as I timed my stroke to assure a nice meeting of his head with my elbow. I barely made it to the race and was not going to get smashed up by some guy who wanted to sling off of people. I managed to knock off his goggles and stop him in his tracks and the lady next to me muffled a ‘thanks’ as we both took a breath. I certainly don’t make practice of getting into bashing on the swim but this guy was way out of line purposefully grabbing and pulling himself forward. After that things really cleared up and I swam a nice comfortable pace to the finish.
Transition was good except that I started to put my jersey on over my Louis Garneau Tiger Shark suit. I didn’t get enough sun screen and suffered burnt arms and calves but I’m not sure any amount would have helped with the super clear skies that we had.
The bike leg was totally fun. I now know what people mean when they talk about the wind to Hawi. We had a tail wind for the first couple of hours but once we began to climb to Hawi all hell broke loose. The wind was mainly at our faces but also gusted from the right. When you’re getting pushed around at 10mph you know it’s a strong wind. I did stop after the turn in Hawi which is actually over half way at 60 miles. I hit the porta jon for a tinkles and a quick stretch of the left (bad) leg. The descent was interesting with the cross-tail winds. You get some shelter from some small rock cliffs but then get blown sideways when the terrain opens up. I could see where the cross winds would gust and braced accordingly but many folk ate some gravel getting blown off the course. Towards the bottom I saw a pro woman in the fetal possition with cones around her in the middle of the road. There were a ton of volunteers and medical already there and a couple miles later I saw an ambulance rushing to the scene. When I turned back on the King Kam highway there was a steady head wind that would pursist all the way back to Kona. Luckily it wasn’t too brutal but I still don’t have a ton of power so it made life a bit interesting. Just when I was getting a bit tired the NBC crew drove up to me in a red convertable car. I had already done pre-interview stuff on Thursday and they were following up on the course. They drove by me and had me out in the oncomming lane to get footage and chat. It made the time go by really fast and soon I was getting ready for the second transition.
Getting off the bike after 112 miles of power riding was a trip. My left calve was tight and everything was fatigued. Luckily my shoulders weren’t too bad considering the death gripping of the bars that occured at times on the bike course. I took time to ice my leg and then off I went into the complete unkown. I jogged along for about a half mile until I ran into my family (my mom and dad, my wife Jennie, aunt Dona and uncle Dave and of course my supper couragous nephew Adam who has the talent to sleep on a sidewalk and the maturity way beyond his 9 years of age to not complain). My left leg was totally fatigued and I knew it was going to be a long, long day. I began to walk. I walked and walked. Everyone along Alii drive was encouraging but unkowingly giving me the advice of ‘walk it off - you’ll be able to run soon’. Of course they didn’t know that I had no time to develop the muscle endurance in my left leg and thus it was not possible to ‘walk it off’. It did make me laugh though and I didn’t have the heart to say anything to the contrary, so I just thanked everyone and kept going. At mile 8 I was absolutely hating life. My hamstings in my left shut down. My knee wanted to buckle backwards. If I stopped I would stumble and almost fall over. I began to feel sorry for myself, something I try hard not to do. At mile 10 I encountered my family again. I stopped on the side of the road, sat down, took my shoes off, iced both feet and my left leg, took 4 advil and debated for a minute quitting. Now is where the true story begins…
Mile 10 was absolutely the low point of the day. My shoes were off, the ice felt oh so good and my mind was on sitting on our terrace at the condo and sipping a beer (or guzzling 10). It was a beautiful picture I painted inside my head that quickly turned into a nightmare. I then thought of how I would feel waking up the next day. I thought about all the people I know who would kill for a chance just to do Hawaii. I thought of my buddy Shayne Stiller who was born with physical issues that he refused to call ‘limitations’ or ‘disabilities’, I thought of little Shayne - the 7 year old with CP that I had the absolute privilage of assisting at Miracle Kids Tri, I thought of my family and friends, and I though of my students - many of whom have overcome huge challenges in life. It was then easy to paint a new picture inside my head of finishing.
I got going from that hellish point of mile 10. I got that deep stuborness brewing again. I was in a trance concentrating with every step of my left leg to assure that it would land properly and not buckle. I spoke to my leg and told it to keep going. I created a connection with it that would last 16 more miles - a symbiotic connection in which my leg knew that if it got me to the finish I would treat it oh so nice with advil and beer later on (I forgot to bring the percacet). I went to places inside myself that I never knew existed. I thought of everyone who was tracking me along the way and who helped me get there directly through actually slicing and dicing me, rehabing me, training with me, encouraging me, sending ‘good luck’ e-mails or indirectly by thinking of me. It was 16 miles of mind over matter and this mattered!
The last 5 miles I hooked up with 61 year old Kona resident ‘Hammer’. We would chat a bit and then simply walk in silence for awhile. It was great to simply be by somebody after 21 miles. There were a few other times that people stopped to walk with me but I was more in need of being by myself until those last 5 miles when I knew that I would make it. At 2 miles to go I looked at my watch. I realized that if my left leg gave out (and it was getting very close to doing so) that I could crawl to the finish and make the cut off. I was incredibly tired at this point. It was the most tired I’ve ever felt.
The final mile took an eternity. I willed that finish line to move closer. When I made the turn to Alii drive there were people all over the street screaming their heads off. As I neared the baracaded area I saw the Mercers and Yndestads and many of the other Minnesota contingents. They were all showered up and looked fairly recovered. They had come back to greet me at the finish. Right at the entry to the finish chute I saw my family. I had that complete emotional rush that hits you like a brick when you are about to accomplish a significant goal but I was too tired to have it turn into physical emotion and I was too afraid to stop walking for fear that my leg would quit.
I actually stopped walking right on top of the finish line. I heard that ‘beeeeeep’ of my timing chip and I just stopped. I stood there for a moment soaking it in. I wanted to turn around and look at the masses of people but could not get my legs to move. Two volunteers draped a towel over my shoulders and wrapped my arms around their shoulders. I stumbled all over but they held me up. I took about 10 steps (and thought about mile 10) up to Chrissy Wellington who placed a lei over my head and congratulated me. All I could do was smile and say ‘thanks’. The volunteers walked me over to a chair. I sat down and Dave, Sarah (Mercers), Cathy and Kerry (Yndestads) came over. Dave gave me a huge peice of pizza that I quickly devoured. My wife and mom had passes to get to me. Jennie went and got my bike and transition bags and I went over (with the help of volunteers once again) to get my finishers medal, T-shirt and hat. I then pondered how I was going to get back to the car a half a mile away. No way was I able to walk any more.
Somehow I managed to swing my leg over my bike and road back to the car. I now was talking out loud to my leg, telling it that it did a great job, would need to do a bit better next time, and that I would give it some beer very soon. The drive home was super quick. I limped the 20 yards to the elevator and the 5 yards from the elevator to our condo entrance. Jennie passed me a beer.
Yesterday I awoke with a deep and almost foreign feeling. I think it was a mix of gratitude, happiness, elation and pure satisfaction. It’s a coctail that one can never get tired of. We stayed at our condo, went to the pool, and ventured out late afternoon to get a long sleeved white T-shirt to cover up my sun burned arms and get a few groceries. We talked and laughed our heads off all day. I made some phone calls and replied to some text messages. I enjoyed feeling stiff and sore and laughed about it when shuffling into the ‘Crazy Shirts’ store right by our condo.
Today I awoke to the same feeling and with the priority of getting this post done. More than anything I want to reiterate my thanks for all of the love and support I have recieved throughout this difficult season. This is not my success. This is the success of everyone and anyone who has helped me. Thanks for the insiration to do what I did. Thanks for the support. Thanks for the High - it will last a lifetime…
Mahalo and Aloha!!!
I’m off to ‘walk it off’…
Jeremy